Over the past 4.5 months I have encountered more uncertainty than I had ever before experienced. With rapid, unexpected changes, and being thrown into situations I hadn’t planned on being in, my brain was thrown into a whirlwind of “what if’s.”
Simple things became hard. As someone who loves planning – planning was impossible. I couldn’t have predicted all that had happened the last few months – so what was to come? Who knows.
Deep core questions began to flood my mind.
Lord, why did you allow this when all seemed to be going so well with ministry and life? Why does it seem like evil is winning? Do you see what your people are facing? How are you just in this situation?
I have found that the immense uncertainty of future, safety, and purpose easily rock the boat of certainty in sweet King Jesus.
But God has showed me that the opposite of uncertainty is: sureness, confidence, trust, belief, assurance, faith. My sweet Abba Father has showed me that in order to combat the anxiety and fear that uncertainty brings I need to focus instead on what is sure. Simply put – to focus on Him. He is sure when nothing else seems to be. He is our anchor in the rough storms.
I remember in senior year in high school my girl friends and I thought it would be fun to take a dance class. Most of us had never taken dance before, so, it was hard work, but a great time was had by all.
When we were doing lyrical dance we learned to spin. Sounds simple, right? Well, in order to not become dizzy you have to train yourself to focus on one spot and keep your eyes there. So while your body is turning your eyes stay fixed until your head turns rapidly to get back around to get your eyes back on the focus spot. This allowed for our bodies to keep spinning and keep you from getting dizzy and toppling over.
When our world seems to be spinning… When the “what if’s” and core questions flood our minds… When uncertainty becomes a way of life – we have to fix our eyes on sweet King Jesus to keep from toppling over. Sure, we can try fixing our eyes on other things, but all else will fail us eventually. But our precious Savior is incapable of failing. He will be steadfast, sure and true despite the swirling, changing, uncertain circumstances around us.
When Peter had his eyes fixed on Jesus he walked on water, yet when fear took over and his eyes shifted from Jesus he began to sink.
Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. (Hebrews 12:1-2)
We fix our eyes on Jesus who has authored our lives and although it seems chaotic to us – it’s not to Him. We fix our eyes on Jesus who has already finished our race for us. We fix our eyes on Jesus because He suffered and was shamed so that we wouldn’t have to. We fix our eyes on Jesus because He is with God interceding for us. We fix our eyes on Jesus because He loves and cares for us.
As we fix our eyes on that which is unmovable, unshakable, unchangeable – the uncertainties, anxieties and fears fade away in His awesome presence.
What uncertainties, trials, or pain are you facing? What deep questions are plaguing your mind? What causes you to be anxious? Do you feel like your sinking in the storm or falling as your life spins out of control? Where are your eyes fixed?
May we fix our eyes on sweet Jesus. For this we can be certain of:
He is who He says He is. He will do all that He says He will do. We are who He says we are. We can do all that He asks us to do through His power.
Fixing my eyes on Him with you as we step forward in faith,