When you live in a cabin, the last thing you want to see are thousands of little termites who have made your home their home. Yet, after having deep cleaned my house before I went to visit friends in Managua, that is exactly what I found upon my return. Thankfully the main structure of my house is treated and so no damage can be done. But they did a great job of finding and nibbling away at some of my decorations that are made of wood.
I found myself quite frustrated… not only were they eating some of my special decorations, but I had just cleaned everything very well 3 days before and now I would have to clean again. It’s amazing how living in the jungle, with a open house, requires so much cleaning. In dry season there is dirt everywhere ALL the time. In rainy season there are bugs ALL the time. I can clean the cobwebs in the morning and have more by the evening. I’ve found it takes a lot of work to just live life here.
Anyway, as I was fumigating the termites that night and sweeping the following hour, sweet Jesus tugged on my heart and reminded me how I need to clean house, too. I used to be in a good habit of daily asking the Lord to show me my sin and repenting – turning back to Him. Yet, with the past several months of teams and so much going on I have gotten lazy.
But, I realize that crying out as David did in Psalm 139 is a must…
Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!
Yet, it’s also more than that… If we’re only keeping up with the filth it’ll be hard to ever get ahead. Scripture also calls us to “Be on guard” (Mark 13) and “Prepare our minds for action” (1 Peter 1). If I would’ve been going out a looking around my house, guarding it, I would’ve seen the 4 HUGE termite nests in the trees and we could’ve killed them before they came inside the house.
The other day I read in another missionary blog about how easy it is to be bearing spiritual fruit on the outside and yet rotting on the inside. I pray that the Lord will guard my heart against this and never stop growing me on the inside. It is SO easy to get caught up in all I’m doing, yet I’m continually reminded that the Lord is more interested in my heart than what I do for Him.
What are some ways that we can keep on guard? What are the weights in our life that we should get rid of that keep us from being on guard? Are we bearing fruit but rotting on the inside or is our personal journey and relationship with the Lord more important to the mission?
May we all battle the termites that threaten our lives and strive to be healthy trees planted by the Living water bearing good fruit for the glory of our Father in Heaven.
Fighting with you, Bethany Joy