Well, I’m back from my 5 week training in Belgium (CCMI) and ready to finish up fundraising and get to Nicaragua as soon as the Lord will allow. If I could describe my time at CCMI in one word it would be – CONFIDENCE.
In the States I know how to get around, buy what I need, and live life. Even in Costa Rica I had become accustomed to what life looked like. Moving to a completely new place can be a bit overwhelming. Where do you buy craft supplies, shampoo and food? How do you get from point A to point B? What about when my language ability is lacking and I can’t even communicate? I had become a bit anxious about moving to Nicaragua. Being here in Belgium and traveling around on the weekends has restored my confidence. Eventually, I’ll be able to learn the ropes in Nicaragua too. Confidence.
Living life with fellow MTW missionaries has also given me growing confidence in what the Lord is calling me to do. Yes, I’ve known He’s called me to follow Him in overseas missions for a while now, but in the States what the Lord has called me to do is not the norm – leaving all that you know for a foreign land is strange. Yet, surrounded by others who are called to the same strange, hard, yet glorious thing is confidence building. I see a bigger picture for what our Lord is doing around the world – all that He is at work doing through us, His imperfect yet willing servants. Confidence.
By being able to spend a wonderful weekend speaking Spanish in Paris with a good friend from Spain, I was excited with the ability to communicate and understand well in Spanish. Yes, I still have a good bit to learn, of course, but the week in PILAT helped me to know how to best continue learning Spanish. The techniques are simple, doable, and effective. I know, with the Lord’s help, I will be able to learn the Spanish and culture specific to the valley where I will be serving, and do it well. Confidence.
Hearing others stories of how the Lord has and continues to provide for fellow missionaries at the training was so encouraging. Financially, physically, emotionally – in every way possible. Even while I was at CCMI and unable to support raise the past month the Lord brought in another 8% of monthly support – brining me up to 68% of support raised so far. God is providing abundantly and continually. Confidence.
As I walked through grief with leaving the kidos I nannied over the past 6 years, I saw the Lord provide small outlets of healing through the missionary kids at CCMI. Each game of tag, hide-n-go-seek, Uno, peek-a-boo, toss in the air and little hug was a soothing salve to my hurting heart. Yes, I will continue to grieve leaving them and my own dear sweet family in the days to come, yet I know the Lord will not only grieve with me, but also provide little joys amidst the pain. He is faithful and He cares for me. Confidence.
While in Belgium I attended a Turkish Armenian Evangelical Church. They were so inviting, hospitable, and encouraging during my time there. It’s hard to leave my home church where I’ve been my entire life, yet I experienced the body of Christ in a beautiful way while in Belgium and I know, as the Lord’s body is also alive in Nicaragua, that I will get to be apart of yet another wonderful part of our family in Christ. Confidence.
“And I am confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6
In what ways is our Father calling you to be confident in Him? In His work in your life? In what He is doing? May we not simply stumble through life, because our God is faithful and we can be confident in Him. Praise be to His Holy Name!
Walking in Confidence with you,